I’m just bloggin’

A million ideas ran through my mind.  Such topics as, dating, sex and relationships.  Beauty, fashion and growing up to name a few.  One thought thrusted forth and birth this brief but poignant entry.

ARE YOU READY FOR SOME FOOTBALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL??

No?  I Sure am.

As I stated in a previous entry their opening a new sports bar 2 blocks away from my house and I’m definitely uber ecstatic.  Like a child on Xmas excited!

The Ravens play the Redskins here in Baltimore and I know all the bars downtown will be packed.  What’s even better?  I’m off Friday!  I figured even I went balls to the wall night before, I could sleep the time during my trip.

Anywhoots…If any of you readers know of any fantasy football leagues please let me know.  I said i was going to make my own but at this point i dont know who’d join. lol

Peace, Love and Gap

Gonna give it to the world. Peace, Love and Gap! (c) Common

Prior to this last year the Gap was letting me down.  Their fits/sizes were all over, the jeans gave me the pseudo wood in front and the thighs just didnt give like i needed them to.  The shirts sized M or L were extra baggy, the dresses were sack like and I was only purchasing accessories.  Miraculously in the past 3 months, I’ve copped 3 different styles of jeans from them.  In addition to a slew of tanks, tees and lipbalms.

I guess they heard my humble pleas as i begged for the clean mature feel of Gap’s basic fashion staples.  Yes, I wanted that pant I could rock for a few years but, it wasn’t panning out for me prior to this.  You see I have a confused body.  Little booty, lotta thighs, broad shoulders and ample cleave.  Mixed up right?  So i’d find a bigger pant that fit my thighs and wouldn’t eventually tear but, the booty was baggy.  Or, the top fit in the boobs but not the shoulders.

The Gap has always been in my rotation but, never the main store I’d check for clothing.  Recently this has changed.  I’d gotten a coupon for 40% off any regular priced item and thought…why not get some of those limited edition 1969 jeans?

The 1969 jean is limited edition as, it celebrating the anniversary of when the Gap first opened it’s doors.  Some 35 years later Gap is still around and slugging it out with some of the worlds best jean brands.

I’ve always wanted to go to a store and get the custom fitting of jeans done and Gap has also answered that.  Starting Aug. 8, The Gap will host a Find your favorite fit event with jeans as low as 39.95.  In addition to finding your fave fit, if you purchase said jeans you get a coupon for itunes; so u can purchase the song that fits your jeans.  cute right?

Oh and what jean did i most recent settle on?  The Gap 1969 Always Skinny’s.  I was initially shocked at the ease and comfort by which these glided on my legs.  They fit perfect without several washings and come with rips in the knee and thigh area.  I’m almost excited to find out how they’ll look over time…I also do believe i’ll be buying another pair soon.  And you should too

-Bew

A little goes a long way

Yesterday as I was strolling the sunny streets of downtown Baltimore, I stopped at a bank; I was in need of lunch money.  While waiting in line I saw a guy fiddling with his back pack and cd player.  I noticed he was sweating profusely and decided to bust out a lil jokey joke.  To him I said, ” that just means you have on too many layers for the summer.” He turned around and laughed.  He further went onto explain how he’d just left the gym.  He readied his items, bid me farewell and smile hugely as he exited the door.

Normally I wouldn’t have said anything but I was feeling in a light mood and felt like striking up a conversation.  He was more than receptive and happy about it.  Everyone wins!

I exited the bank,  continued my walk and I saw him on the other side of the street walking the same route as I;  he was still smiling.

With much fervor, I continued my walk to Lexington Market.  We were only allotted an hour for lunch and I wanted to utilize my break to the utmost.

Finally, I reached Faidley’s inside the market.  I ordered my usual, 1 dozen freshly shucked Choptank Salts.  As I was dressing my salty treats I turned around and who was standing in the gateway of Faidley’s seemingly looking for me?  Him! Dude from the bank!

He briskly comes over to me and strikes up the following conversation:

Him: I just wanna say that you speaking to me made my day.  Not many women speak to us brothers and it made me smile that something so simple as a joke added extra pep in my step. It was also bold…not bold in a bad way but good.

me: I’m glad i could help.  We all deserve a moment of reprieve from our mind and it’s thoughts.

H: *smiles hoard*  so i know you don’t have any kids because you’re too happy.

M: damn..no i dont have kids.

H: you don’t seem jaded and that’s nice.  I’d ask you for your information but i’m currently in a situation (it seems like every dude is in a situation..and usually when they say this, i’ve already checked out)

M: That’s ok. And well thanks?

H: *laughs* that was awkward..i mean i’m divorced and i’m kinda seeing someone now..

M: You don’t have to explain but thank you for your kind words.

H: Damnnnn man.. you have a very beautiful face..like a television persons face.. the smile the eyes.. do you work out? Cause you look nice..

M: *cheeses* Thank you. And no I can’t say I work out as much as I should but my wii fit makes it a bit more fun.   Well, let me eat my lunch.  I only have 20 more minutes and would like to be back on time

H: You take care and don’t change..never…for no one..dont become bitter and jaded.

M: I won’t..see you around

Now… after he left I sat there and thought.  Thought about what goes through guys minds that they dont really talk about when it comes to dating and such.  It was refreshing that a guy I did not know basically imparted a few of his views on the current status of dating.  I kind of wished for a moment that all guys could be as honest with themselves as they think they are with you..but alas que sera.

I smiled and smiled heartily for that moment, if not the whole day.

A little kindness goes far.

namaste.

Weekending

You ever have one of those days when you wake up and it’s like everything you were worried about has been lifted …you feel like and sunny? Well that’s me today..

I have on some new jeans and i look fab. So *cheeses*

Randumb:

I didn’t know the Pointer Sisters sang this.. you learn something new erryday.

Randumbs on a Wednesday

- I need to stop falling asleep at 9/10…waking up at 5/6 am is not the business.

- I can’t run right now because my doctor is worried about the cartilage in my knee.  He explained I can run on grass or AstroTurf but, concrete not so much.

-Stalking tickets take patience.  I’ve been looking for Raven’s tickets.  I made a promise to myself…to go to at least 2 home games.

-A lot of my favorite foods are turning on me. 

-Which leads to  feeling like i’m dying in the am.

-I love that i’m hourly at work now…

-I saw my ex the other day and kept it moving.  He’s the grandstand type and when i saw him last he looked like he was doing Beyonce’s ring dance from the single ladies video.

- A lot of dudes smile at me in the streets.  It’s funny because i know it’s all apart of the game so I never turn around as i’m waking past them..lol

- The ceiling above my tub was leaking the other day.  I emailed the landlord and he said it’s probably the shower in the apartment above me.  No shit! lol

-My brother has reprised all the irksome litte things that set me off.  He thinks that it’s funny, I think it’s only a matter of time before i chop him hard as hell in the throat.

- I cannot wait for Football Season to kick off.

- Fantasy Football too

- I miss my football Sundays..

- I’ve been saying my old flag football team isn’t really a team for a long ass time.  Compared to other teams our cohesion and comraderie is not there.  We have a few foks with natural talent but they just need to hone in and craft a better core.

- Am i even playing this year?

- What happened to excitement and butterflies?

I’m just sayin…green..red…gold

http://www.veoh.com/collection/s347301/watch/e116807jM7mcmY9

One of my earliest fashion inspirations.

Dating doesn’t suck, the people do.

I was recently having a pow-wow with the ladies and came to the conclusion that dating doesn’t suck..the people do.

Some folks instead of staying alone or really figuring out what they want, they enter new dealings to take their minds off their old dealings. ( I call these serial monogamous)  And others date as a means to feel better about themselves.

It’s like you do the song and dance, get excited about the possibility and then someone reveals a little too much information which raises red flags.

Often ignored, the red flags are always around(sometimes).  Some folks choose to ignore others try to mend or fix.

At this point in my life I no longer want the fixer uppers. (y’all know what I’m talking about..just hurt upon hurt upon hurt..they’re so closed off and guarded it’s like Rapunzel)

Those are the bitter, jaded dudes that blame everyone but themselves for being single.  When in actuality they are the major factor as to why they can’t have a relationship for longer than 6 weeks- 2 months.

It seems this particular set is most attracted to me…

A nuturer by choice, I like to love up on my bews…with silly calls, text and such just to show..yes..yes u mister guarded can have some drama free and easy love as well…but I’m convince some people don’t want it if it doesn’t come with some sort of fight or drama..

I believe dating has 3 types of people: 1. the bitter/jaded/guarded person who wants to find someone but doesn’t wanna meet anyone new for fear of hurt (how the hell do you expect to meet someone if yo ass is so angry and grumbing?)  2.  The fencer (this person always straddles the fence of wanting more but doesn’t pursue it for some reason or another 3. The all in (this person has no qualms about letting u know how they feel and they make you feel good because it’s almost as it should be… mutual.

I myself would like #3..Just live and let’s see where it goes.  No limitations..no if, ands or buts.

The more people I meet the closer I think i get to gaining my one person.

Often my homeboys and homegirls always wanna have an intervention because they can’t understand how i’ve been single so long.. Mostly by choice but,  i just let them know I’m becoming a lot more adapt at chunking people the deuces when they raise those red flags.

Though I get down, I’ll never give up because i think trying is the most courageous thing to do.

It beats the defeatist train of thought.

Get you some.

What’s the meaning of life?

In my lifetime..

[Jay-Z]
It’s the thought of a ride that make my eyes wide, I’m caught up
I’m trying to make, all of my dreams materialize, so I sorta
say my goodbyes to the straight and narrow
I found a new route, you bout to see my life change
I make the means justify the ends, I make the cream
materialize keys to a Benz, and so I’m rollin
For now, holdin down the fort, who’s controllin?
The ground’s gotta blow em, yep, y’all shoulda told em
Uhh, my first felony’s approachin, copped my first key
Took a freeze, now I’m frozen
I bought a black Mac, I’m outta control
Losin bankrolls on blackjack, you gotta know
it always crossed my mind that Feds be tappin the lines like Gregory Hines
Still on the phone discussin my biz like it could never be mines
I know the price, know the risk, know the wrongs, and the rights
Still my blood flows ice, it’s just my life

[Chorus:]

What’s the meaning, what’s the meaning of life?
[scratched "In my lifetime"]
What’s the meaning, what’s the meaning of life?
[scratched "In my lifetime"]

[Jay-Z]
I’m like the bass with the ass, splashin cold cash
The Big Willie get you chilly when I pass, brrrrrr
Is it, just a mirage all these girls thankin God
Is this, world my world, am I the star of stars?
Baby pimped out, I’m gettin too large and smokin cigars
All chicks is hollerin bout chica, the whole city’s buzzin
wasn’t checkin for me a dozen or so, months ago
Now I’m all they know, I’m a person
Lettin the Cristal’s breathe at the Barnacle Bar
Under my sleeve, vernacular, 50 G’s
I’m talkin big cheese, you gotta be down to dig these, uhh
Give me a rush like you wouldn’t believe, my head’s about to bust
Acceleratin what drives me, hope I don’t gotta die
to see, see I can’t lie to me
I know the price, know the risk, know the wrongs and the rights
Still my blood flows ice, it’s just my life

[Chorus 2X]

[Jay-Z]
Uhh, from the beginning see we never seen the ending
Running up in all the women, all the linen, all the jewels, huh
We sported Pele’s, gold diamonds and Pirelli’s
Sports cars, the good life’ll give you a belly but that’s cool
as I, zone in the Al Capone, watch me
cause the Medusa’s head on Versace turned me to stone
Now my poems just ain’t poems, they bloody, when I recite em
Bones get disconnected like the phones
Now, I’m a hardened criminal with game
Like the Garden, all my penpals life controlled by the warden
Still the drill makes me blind to the fact
I could do real time, I’m a prisoner, of my crimes
Know the price, know the risk, know the wrongs and the rights
Now I’m, incarcerate for my life

[Chorus 5X to fade]

Dear God…

Dear God,

It’s your humble and loyal lil’ homie Bew.

The past few days I’ve been up at the crack of dawn with the rest of your living creatures.  The crack of dawn would be 5am (eastern standard time..if ya nasty?)(but you know that!)

I pray to thee that this stopeth.

Why you may ask?  Because I only have to be to work at 9am and getting up at 5am is a bit much considering.

Am i being awakened for a purpose?  Should I take this time to run and get my body in order?  Is there something coming?  Are you prepping me for a 5am flood where i’ll be Noah09?  I mean if you have a purpose for me i’m all for it but, if that time can be moved to say 7 am..that would so totally rock!

Thank you and I love your son Jesus,

Bew Radley

Ps. While you’re fixing things… well can u send ummmmm..nevermind..

Yay God!

Randumb thoughts @ 5:05 am

-why the fudge am i up at 507 in the damn morning?

-why is my teevee this loud?

-oh i was sleeping on my phone.

-i’m not looking forward to work

-i am however glad it is wednesday

-first day back to work post vacation sucks.

- i wear my heart on my sleeve.  some say it’s endearing…i say it’s annoying.

-how can one be cool and wear their heart on their sleeve at the same time? *shrugs* but i think i walk the line.

- dude had a lot of nerve.  i mean he’s still messing with my friend and still asked to me.  Nah duke i’m not down..it’s a reason why u choose to still see her.

-i’ve verbally been saying i want more and i think i’m getting it…now if we can fix my love life.

- what love life?

- what’s love?

- i know i want it.

- *sigh*

- I found out something about my bff inadvertently.  Like someone volunteered some info.  It was something she didnt tell me.  I did not feel hurt she didnt tell me….i’d try to hide that too..lol

- things have a way of finding me.

- i am a conduit to which information flows.  If i were to repeat half the things told to me a lot of folks would be very lawry’s.

-i often think about leaving facebook..i’m already never on myspace…it’s only a matter of time.

- i did a poem on my blog…it’s saved in draft.  i wonder will i ever push that publish button.

- hermit mode.

- i’ve been tossing around the idea of moving. where? *shrugs* West?, Midwest?,South?

deuces,

Boogie