New Management
On the heels of American singles week…
I woke up this morning to a nice clean apartment, windows opens, shades up. The cool breeze blew thru my apartment and felt wonderful as I lie underneath my plush comforter. I opened my eyes slowly and looked over at the alarm clock, 745…perfect.
I got up brewed a pot of coffee and took my time ambling about. I promptly put on Jazzmatazz Vol. 2 and moved about my morning.
Freshly showered, I dressed, checked all the contents of my purse and stood in the middle of my apartment and smiled.
It’s true that a fresh coat of paint, renovating and redecorating can boost how you feel about your surroundings. And I literally took this to heart.
When I began this project on my apartment it spoke alot to me about the current state of my life. Not that my life is bad by no means but i thought why not renovate my heart and mind.
I took inventory and got rid of the excess. Anything that wasn’t adding to my quality of life or anything that posed no great value to me.
I thought about all my dealings since January and looked at all the moves I’d made. I wondered what I could have done differently..but in the end they’re not here because they didn’t want to be or it just wasn’t meant.
I thought about my ex who hinted at reconciliation but I thought about how it all went down. Anyone that would break up with me when i found out my rock died, is not for me. Then again i thought, he seems to be in a different place. I didn’t think anymore about it and I moved passed it.
I’ve gotten several calls and emails from people I use to date inquiring about my current status. I don’t lie..i tell them i’m single but not looking. I’m not off the market but I’m just not interested in being that chick that dudes reach back for because they were too caught up to realize who i was right then and there. That’s not to say that I wouldn’t re date someone I was seeing before but it’s totally contingent on how they treated me. And when I think about some of the dudes..not cool.
The difference between the Bew Radley now and the Bew Radley maybe 2-3 months ago is, she simply has her own.
Her own self image, her own identity, her own life, her own money, her own spot, her own spirituality, her own thing! She strong always has been, and sometimes this poses an obstacle when people try to take advantage…things aren’t so easy.
I’ve always dug how cool I am in all situations and I can’t complain one bit now.
Sure, I get dudes who approach sometimes but somehow they always eliminate themselves before I need to make a decision about anything.
The bff’s dad hipped me to something a long time ago when i was looking for answers in my life. He told me to pray for discernment in all my dealings and doors would slowly open in my mind. And as I prayed everyday, things became easier..decisions became clearer and things slimmed down in my life.
It’s like i have this newer attitude..and i am this newer person…
On other note..this use to be my songggggggggggggg
Did you just dabble in the third person?
And Something in the Past off that Jazzamatazx 2 CD is fabulous
The whole jazzmatazz vol 2 was that hotness…and i did dabble in 3rd person…you likey?